5 days on 200iu gonal f

Only a couple more days until I get a follicle check and I will be really surprised if I don't have more then one follicle. I am literally feeling the pressure! Fingers crossed!

Update on 3rd and final IUI

Today I start my 3rd IUI meds. This is my final IUI before I move on to IVF. I am ready! They upped my gonal f to 200 (from 150) and switched my trigger to a intra-muscular which will hopefully work the 2nd IUI was a total fail. I didn't ovulate and had to wait twice as long for my period. Much baby dust needed!

Family

As most of you know at 14 years old my father sent me 2,000 miles away to live with my grandparents (his parents) and all ties between me, him and my siblings were cut. I felt abandoned and lonely. I had a journal where I logged all my feelings towards my father the good,  bad and ugly. At 18 I asked my grandma to send it to my dad. She told me she would but I later found out she did not. She always protects my dad even though he cut ties with her a long time before and only contacted her when he needed something.  She thought she was protecting me too so I kind of understand why... Anyway, I have no father. He bailed on me and every life event I have gone through. Graduations, marriages and soon new additions to the family (birth or adoption). I don't have many family members  physically  around me. I have a few that stick by me every way possible and some of my moms family that I talk to via e-mail and Facebook. I do talk to my mom and have a great relationship with her. My relationship with my siblings are always being repaired. We lost many years as kids and each of us have made our own individual lives. We don't keep up with each other as often as we should. I am also blessed to have a great family that I've married into. But I  want to point out how  lucky I am to have friends...who support me! Some of them I work with and some I have found on Facebook. Friends who reach out to me on the phone and in person to ask how I am doing and give me hugs of support. Family is more then a blood line... Family is a bond and unconditional love. Thanks for being my family. Before my grandparents, Kevin and the friendships I've made as an adult I didn't know what "family" was!  Much love to you all!

Update Dr.Byler-Dann

Everything looked perfect my uterus was of normal size and lining was only at 1mm (at the time of my ultrasound). I am to followup in another 6 months if I am not pregnant by then. No concerns.

Feelings entry: I am grateful

I just wanted to take the time to say I'm sorry for complaining lately. You have to understand the emotional roller coaster that this journey takes couples on. Especially when they have more than just infertility to worry about.  I had many obstacles to overcome before I could actually start  fertility treatments and when I finally got the chance to start I was only able to complete one full treatment cycle the second one failed. So I've been waiting to start the third cycle and the setback has just been emotionally overwhelming. I also have a lot on my mind which includes insurance and being able to afford IVF. IVF takes a lot of time and everything is calculated a certain way and with it already being February I also have to look at how this is going to affect the way it's billed to my insurance so basically there's just a lot on my mind and when doctors offices don't listen to me and don't take the time to talk to me it just gets very frustrating. Not to mention I don't know how much time I have left to do treatments. It's been a year and I've only had one successful cycle. I'm grateful that I have a group of friends and family members who take the time to try and understand what I'm going through and help to give me the encouragement I need to continue. I'm trying to take a grateful approach to things and this to We Shall Overcome.

Thanks for helping us by donating

I just wanted stop and write a quick blog post for people who have donated and for those who might in the future.
It truly means everything to Kevin and I when someone donates to our cause. Kevin and I dont have a lot of money and we know in these hard times how it can be a stretch to donate so we thank every single person who has donated cash and ordered blankets! The money and the fear is what has kept us from trying to build a family before and we are so grateful for our friends and the new ones we have met along the way.
If we do end up having a child they will know how loved they are and if we don't at least we know we had everyones blessing and we tried with everything we have!
Our goal no matter what is to eventually foster and adopt a child (or more) so we know no matter what we will have the completed family we so desire!
Coming up Feb 18th is our fundraiser by Sarah S and Lularoe! Looking forward to meeting new people!
Please read old posts explaining more of our journey! If you have any questions feel free to message me! If your also suffering from infertility and need a friend I am here for you.
Thank you!

-In Vitro Fertilization is assisted reproductive technology (ART) commonly referred to as IVF. IVF is the process of fertilization by manually combining an egg and sperm in a laboratory dish, and then transferring the embryo to the uterus.
- On average, nationally, a “fresh” IVF cycle costs $12,000, before medications, which typically run another $3,000 to $5,000. 

Update on late period

Went to the doctor today for a ultrasound and found out that I didn't ovulate last cycle. Which would explain why I didn't have a period. I also have a twenty-something MM cyst on one of my ovaries. Since I didn't have a period this month I'm going to have to take an injection in the butt delivered by my lovely husband with a needle as long as my index finger and of course because it's in the muscle it will hurt but we are upping the dose of my medication and going through with my next IUI following my period fingers crossed the third does the trick! I also have a appointment with my oncologist to update her on how things are going. hopefully she thinks my uterus looks ok to continue doing what we're doing it's always up to her.