Update on late period

Went to the doctor today for a ultrasound and found out that I didn't ovulate last cycle. Which would explain why I didn't have a period. I also have a twenty-something MM cyst on one of my ovaries. Since I didn't have a period this month I'm going to have to take an injection in the butt delivered by my lovely husband with a needle as long as my index finger and of course because it's in the muscle it will hurt but we are upping the dose of my medication and going through with my next IUI following my period fingers crossed the third does the trick! I also have a appointment with my oncologist to update her on how things are going. hopefully she thinks my uterus looks ok to continue doing what we're doing it's always up to her.

Not sure whats going on!

So, today is 23 days past IUI and big fat negative pregnancy result at 14 days past trigger (13 past iui). I expected my period to start no later then 10 days after that test. We are there now (or a day or two from it). I still don't have a period! I spotted some black stuff on Monday of this week and thought it was starting but I haven't had anything since!  I called my RE yesterday and he said it was odd and wondering why I haven't started. It could be I didn't ovulate (even with a trigger shot), or my hyperplasia is coming into play. I hope it's that I didn't ovulate because if its my hyperplasia then that makes me worry! Endo hyperplasia is abnormal thickening of my lining (which is where the pre cancer cells were a few months back). I don't see my oncologist until Feb so my RE is having me come in for an ultrasound to see how my uterus looks. I am worried something is wrong... More updates as they come!

2nd IUI failed

Well as expected my second IUI failed. Waiting to hear back from Dr. G on what to do now.

12dpiui

Today is 12 days past my IUI. I go in for a blood test tomorrow but I am sure it's negative because I took a urine test and it was negative. I am not holding my breath that the blood test will come back any different. I have a few things I want to talk to the doctor about.
1. Are my tubes clear?
2. How can we increase the amount of follicles produced?
3. Are you sure I am ovulating?
4. Is there a way to tell there is an egg in the follicle produced?
There are more questions I have that I hope I can write down for when the office calls me tomorrow.

Blankets for baby

Okay that title is kind of corny. But in this very serious situation it lightens things up a bit. I have talked in my previous blog about how I am stressed out on how we're going to be able to find the funding for IVF. This blog is going to kind of give a overview of who I am and why I'm doing this. I am 28 years old and last year was diagnosed with uterine hyperplasia with atypia. That is basically pre cancer cells in my uterus. I see an oncologist every 4-6 months for that and I  also suffer from PCOS and have for several years. I was about fourteen when I was diagnosed with PCOS and in my opinion it's the reason I am where I am today. My husband and I have  been seeing a specialist for fertility so that we can have a child of our own before I have to undergo a hysterectomy. Blankets for baby is a way to keep my mind off of trying to conceive and it's a way for my husband and I to bond as well as take a little bit of money to put towards an IVF cycle. My husband and I have undergone two IUI and medicated Cycles and if this second time doesn't work we're looking at IVF within the next couple of months somehow before then I have to come up with $3,000 to pay the doctor upfront this may be our only chance to have a child and it's unknown as to when I will have to have a hysterectomy so it's ideal that we start saving and putting all our resources toward IVF now. I have always wanted to be a mother and my husband is a great father to his 11 yr old. I have shed many tears when I found out I will have to have a hysterectomy but I refuse to fight cancer if I can avoid it. Therefore when my oncologists say its time to have a hysterectomy then I will but first I have to fight for my last chance at being a biological mom! If you have any questions about this journey or about me please give me a message on Facebook. Thank you to all who have donated so far every dollar helps take a little bit of a burden off of us. All our love Jessica and Kevin

IVF thoughts

I am just thinking...if we end up needing to have IVF what will that cost us? I THINK we have coverage on 3 cycles (in a lifetime) but the average cost is $25,000 each. I am not sure how much we will need up front plus the meds. If we don't succeed with IUI this cycle Kevin and I want to try one more before moving on. But the reality is we do not have extra money in the bank. We literally live paycheck to paycheck and cant afford getting a loan to invest in something we aren't sure will even work! We don't want to ask friends for money because everyone I know live on a budget. IVF is our last chance at conceiving  we deff dont have the money to adopt or pay someone to carry a baby for us. I am trying not to stress but I cant help it. I am actually having a panic attack. Each failed treatment cycle crushes my spirt and the hope in my heart fades. I don't know what to do or where to start. We don't have the time to wait the clock is ticking each month that passes. At each oncologist check up I am grateful I am still cancer free. but we  dont really know that for sure its only an educated guess. The only way they will know before cancer invades my body is to get a hysterctomy and test the layers of my uterus that aren't easy access. Sorry this post is a little all over the place. These are the thoughts that are invading my mind. These are my worries and fears. I am afraid thay we will never have a child together...we will forever be alone. Time for bed and to cry myself to sleep. I can only hope tomorrow is better.

Round 2 IUI

Well, just finished our second IUI and The sperm count was down by about 5 million. This time around his count was only about 3 million. Still a good number though don't get me wrong. While we were there a lady thats 8 months pregnant brought over cookies to the office as a thank you. When the doctor came in he told me he just touched a pregnant belly and reached over to touch mine saying he was passing on the good luck. It was very sweet of him to say that to me. He did say that if this doesn't work we will then talk about our "options" I think he was referring to IVF. We aren't sure we can afford IVF but IVF has much higher success rates. We shall see... Pregnancy test in two weeks! Merry Christmas!